Well, it’s nice to have a day to catch up on both sleep and homework. A brief post and then I’ve got to get going.
As far as God – you have two stories. One great one and one not-great one. You can’t prove the truth of either one, so which do you choose? (Most would say choose the great one, of course.) “And so it is with God,” that was the basic message.
The only flaw in that, is that the “godless” story doesn’t have to be “not-great.” It can be great. It’s just that the greatness will have to come from other things. I also think there’s a third option, which is not to choose at all, but let things play out as they are. (Maybe that’s the second option, rephrased. Dunno.) Anyway, it’s the best argument for believing in God that I have heard, though. I’ll be sticking with option #3, but I did choke up a little bit at one point during the movie, as I recalled that feeling of “the spirit,” which I would describe as the joy that comes from knowledge of a relationship with God. I wished, so badly, for a brief moment, that I could have it back in perfect innocence – in perfect innocence, being the key phrase. I’m sure I could have it back if I chose, but it would still feel like a lie to some degree. So I think mostly I was just mourning the loss of it.
I basically want nothing to do with people at this point, so I’m going to avoid people, from now until this weekend, when I’ll be spending a weekend in a cottage with ten of them. I’m going to ease off the facebook too. All it does is depress me. Maybe once a day or so, for ten minutes maybe, that should be enough.
Focusing on homework, yoga, relaxing (comfort matters – see the comment two posts back – btw thank you for some much needed encouragement!) and that’s it. Trying some positive affirmations, since I’m feeling pretty shitty: trying to visualize light and peace flowing through me, not the ugly dark gunk that looms… these: http://sexloveliberation.com/8-affirmations/
Also here are some pictures from Perth. The same kinds of views can be seen in Edinburgh… it becomes common place after being here for a few months, but I can’t think of a single place in the States, that I’ve seen, that looks like this.
What a cool hotel room keySmoked Salmon on scrambled eggs and toast for breakfast. It was sooo good, I want it again.
Also while I’m at it – Snow in Edinburgh. It’s been snowing for about three days, though it doesn’t stick (thank heavens.) It finally feels like proper winter though… cold!